https://shorturl.im/k7Lg0I’ve been there. After a lifetime of depression realizing that I was no longer depressed was the strangest feeling… it feels a little empty doesn’t it? I spent a lot of time wanting to fill my life with some drama because without the emotional agony I felt lost, cold…almost numb. The negative chatter in my head went away and I worried that I was not longer ‘thinking’ properly. If you have thoughts like this, it is perfectly normal. You just need time to adjust to a new way of thinking after such a powerful struggle. The feeling itself fades once you replace the depression with constructive stressors. The types of constructive stressors which you may wish to engage are in are up to you. A lot of the joy is in the search for a new direction – finally having hopes and dreams for the future. I decided to finally kick my **** in gear and go to school. I chose psychology because my personal experience lead me to be the “counselor” in every group of friends I had. I turned my experience into something good for me, and the pressure/stress keeps my mind busy enough to keep me above the depression. Someone else may start a new job, learn to speak another language, get fit, travel, go on a spiritual journey, spend more time with their child, learn everything that interests them – read, volunteer, learn to play an instrument, paint, do something that they had always wanted to do…these are all examples. Just give yourself a new start now that you are able to. If you do this, the next time you start to feel depressed you’ll have something to fall back on that will help you, and a goal to strive towards. It will help to focus you. The longer you go without feeling depressed, the more time you will have to gain strength and control to deal with those feelings. In that sense, you are growing and improving every day, even on those days that you don’t do much. Remember that, and be patient with yourself. Internal work takes time. The greatest feeling is experiencing that first day of not thinking about yourself as someone who was depressed – just forgetting for a short while that it happened. It’s hard to describe how amazing that is. Good luck to you. Breathe.You’ll be just fine....
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